I went to the Mechanical Engineering department and talked to the adviser about scheduling, classes, and planning. I had hoped to received some good advice and be able to decide on a good direction. However, when I left that meeting, I felt more frustrated than before. The advice I got was “don’t try to plan and just worry about this semester”. I wanted to know what direction I should be headed and all I got in return was “you can’t plan”. I felt so disappointed and more lost than before. For an adviser that’s supposed to help students plan, they didn’t do a very good job at all. As I worked these feelings off throughout the day, I was never any closer to figuring it out. It remained this way until I went to the temple. As I again sat pondering, praying, and contemplating all of the things on my mind, I had a distinct impression that I did need to worry less. Not necessarily plan less, but be less caught up in the future and work more in the now. Today.
God has a plan for us even though we don’t know what that is. All we can do is take it one step at a time and try to follow that plan as best we can as we walk it. God knows the whole path, while we we only see a bit at a time. As long as the path we’re on leads to our Heavenly Father and eternal life with our family, we’re on the right one.
I again had Elder Bednar’s video on revelation come to mind. I desperately wanted and sought guidance so badly that perhaps I had begun to forget that faith is taking a step forward at a time even if we can’t see the final destination. With each step, we’ll be revealed additional light and we’ll be able to keep stepping until we’ll look back and realize how much we were led by Him. This was the biggest lesson that I relearned this past week. Our attempts to ‘figure everything out’ can often led to us to being unable to see clearly. I also happen to run into several other sources of advice that I realized were all saying similar things. A good friend keeps saying ‘don’t worry, just make the most of today and it’ll work out’. I realized how right they were and that’s another new goal. To make the best now I can.
At RHD this week, a few of us stayed longer to help the home owners. It feels so good to serve and make a difference. As an added bonus, we were fed breakfast for lunch without knowing before hand. What a tender mercy!
I’ve started work on several Nerf blasters to take my mind off of stressful stuff and make good use of my free time. Our ward is going to have a talent show this Saturday that I’ll be able to showcase if I finish in time. Also, there’s going to be another Nerf war the week after. I’ll likely be finished by then. It’s relaxing building stuff.
I went to a Three Minute Thesis competition where students presented research to a panel of judges. I ended up going early and was able to set up and meet some new friends. It was great. Service and friends, and free pizza!
On Saturday night, BYU also had their annual refugee awareness banquet. There were some awesome multi-cultural performances and a lot of info on clubs and activities to support the less-fortunate.
There were some technical difficulties this past week that made posting not possible, but now that it’s fixed, there’s so much that has happened this week.
This past weekend was a three day weekend because of President’s Day and it was an even more eventful weekend than usual. On Saturday, I was able to contact and go out with the BYU Airsoft club to an event Saturday morning. It was pretty fun, but I realized how un-practiced I really am. I probably didn’t contribute much to my team in regards to hitting anything, but I did help to run in and capture the flag a few times, before I twisted my ankle on a rock and was hardly able to walk. Luckily that was towards the end so it wasn’t too bad.
After the Airsoft war, we (my sister, cousin, and cousin’s friend) drove up to Smithfield for our Grandpa’s 80th birthday. It was a pretty nice birthday party for an 80yr old and it was great to be ble to see so much family again! Also, one of my cousins is engaged, too. So crazy! On the way back from Smithfield, we picked up a bunch of stuff that mom had brought down from Boise. I’m super excited to have somethings to work on when, and if, I find free time. Other than that, the best thing about trips is being able to listen and share music interests. Just this past Monday and FHE too, we carpooled to the FHE and were able to hear new music again, too. I guess maybe it means even more now that my headphones are broken and I don’t listen to music as often now.
Saturday evening we went to a Nerf war in Orem. We got picked up by a pretty nice stranger, who we now know, and had a Nerf war indoors at a large church building. We’re not sure how they got that approved, but they’ve been having them there for almost a year now. It was David’s first Nerf war and we got to meet a bunch of people. It was pretty awesome being able to relive the glory days, although my ankle was still pretty sore so, again, I mostly limped and hobbled around. Next month I’m determined to play at my best. We did a few different game types, including Humans vs Zombies. I would’ve loved to run around as a zombie, if I could’ve ran. Also, because it was in a church, I couldn’t use any blasters too powerful, but once it warms up, they’re do events outside, so that’ll be fun.
Over President’s day, I went and visited Temple Square again. It’s 35 acres of pretty much pure cool. I visited a few museums and toured the Conference Center for the first time. I was impressed with the amazing paintings and history that I hadn’t known before. There’s a new Joseph Smith movie in a special surround theatre and new Meet the Mormon’s videos. There’s a new segment about a family of Japanese performers that was really interesting, as well as a horse trainer, and a couple who’ve done a lot of humanitarian work and the husband eventually ended up becoming a member. I would highly recommend checking it out if planning on visiting Temple Square.
Other things that have happened: I’m still doing volunteer translating, I was able to start some projects in the ME machine shop, went to a dance class, visited BYU Mechatronic’s club, went to several seminars on Bio-mechanical Engineering which were interesting, haircut, went to student symposium, and I also ran into Kyle Dildine who was down in Provo for his wedding.
It’s so great to be able to catch-up with and see people when you haven’t for a while. I guess that’s how it is when you’re older and move to another place and life takes its hold on our lives.
This week has been such a great one! No sickness or serious injury, so definitely one of the better ones! Next week will be the start of mid-terms week, so we’ll see how that goes.
Last Sunday, we had a special fireside. It was a typical fireside for a YSA ward. It was on relationships, dating, and marriage. Our bishop shared some advice and points of view that really made me look at things in a different way. He emphasized that we must be genuine, honest, and brace in serious relationships. When the time comes, be courage and clear. It’s not some kind of weird game, he said. If you like someone, tell them you like them and see what happens. They also focused on the fallicy of looking for the one right person. Maybe other people have adifferent opinion, but they said don’t get caught up in finding the one. It’s our decision and if we spend all our time waiting and searching for ‘the one’, we may end up finding that we’ve just wasted a lot of our time. Just be true to who you are, be brave, and go for it.
At the end of the fireside, they announced that they’re going to start a Dating Box. You put your name, or other’s names, or two names together in the box and they’ll be drawn out and go on a date. It’s kind of a fun, forced way to get people dating. I put my roommate’s name in a few times.
This week, I’ve completed my second interview for the MTC and should hear something back again this week. If it’s good, there be another round of interviews. I’ve also volunteered to help translate for the church. For family search and the Gospel Library App. I’m really excited to get to continue to grow my language abilities. I went into a Thai class here on campus, but they said we’re not allowed to just sit in on classes without registering for credit, so I’ll have to consider taking a Thai class or not. In the meantime, I’ll be translating things here and there for the church! Also, I just got Thai keyboard stickers for my laptop. I can type in Thai now! เย้ๆ
A big highlight this week was going down to the BYU ME projects lab. It’s a lab full of sweet, big tools. They have mills, lathes, CNC, and a waterjet cutting machine. The best thing is, it’s all free to use for students for nearly anything we want! I’m super excited! We had a safety instruction and made little aluminum medallions. I’m feeling like I’m enjoying this Mechanical Engineering track and maybe I am in the right program. As far as working with one’s hands and being physical, people at the shop class kept saying that it was a place for those that liked to work with their hands to get some practical experience. Kind of like street smart vs book smart. I’m thinking that kind of work is looking more and more attractive to me, but we’ll see.
This past week I’ve diligently exercised everyday. It really does make a difference. “Cease to be idle; cease to be unclean; cease to find fault one with another; cease to sleep longer than is needful; retire to thy bed early, that ye may not be weary; arise early, that your bodies and your minds may be invigorated” (D&C 88:124). Yesterday my sister and I went shopping and I found some new athletic/running shoes, so maybe I’ll possibly start running everyday, too.
Our Tuesday devotional was by Elder Cook. It’s so cool to get to hear from general authorities on a semi-regular basis! Such a blessing! He spoke on the WoW and LoC, also about the importance of having children. A bit far into the future for me, but it was a good talk non-the-less.
This past week there was also a Science Technology Engineering Mathematics career fair and I got to talk to a lot of interesting companies and learning more about internships. I was mostly interested in the ones that worked with the military and did mechanical work, although most were looking for Informational Technology type majors. I also stopped by and talked to the ROTC department about opportunities. It’s always been something I’ve been interested in, but never super strongly. However, what it has to offer seems to be very in-line with what I’m looking for, so I’ve decided to give it a go. I’ll take some ROTC classes starting next semester and see how I like it. Maybe a dead-end, but it couldn’t hurt much to try, I hope.
Also, with Rural Housing Development (RHD) I’m now official a Program Director. I’ll be in charge of helping coordinate, train, and lead volunteers. I’ll also have a chance to drive a very large van around. Might be fun. This past week I actually got to use power tools and build things. Fun Fun.
We took our temple trip on Friday this past week because Tyler, our roommate, works on Saturdays and wouldn’t be able to go. We did baptisms Friday night and it was a pretty cool experience. Afterwards, we talked the temple grounds and sat in a separate part of the temple that they build as a kind of waiting area. It is such a beautiful place. He and I sat and talked about relationships for some time, too. He’s planning on serving a mission this coming summer. He’s a super insightful guy and wise beyond his years.
Also, what a big change to hear mom is selling the house! I’ll have to start making plans to move some things here. Luckily, I just found out that our apartment has a semi-large storage room that is also attached to it so there’s plenty of space! Also, I’ve gotten David a big excited about putting together a Nerf group this coming up month/Spring. Way excited!
This week went by really fast again. Last Sunday was cool because some people from our ward saw us walking to church and offered us a ride. We’re actually making new friends! Yeah! Monday’s highlight was ward Family Home Evening. Because there are so many people here, we split up into groups and have FHE. At ours, we learned how to decorate cupcakes the fancy way and it was actually really fun. I only wish there were more cupcakes to eat, but regardless, it was super fun to get to know our neighbors! There are so many new people we meet all the time, I got to pondering, what is a real lasting friendship? And what does it mean to be a true friend? So many people we meet, we only ever see a handful of times, so what does it mean to have a real lasting friendship? Thoughts?
This past week was a bit academically hard for us. The kind of stress that comes from wanting to do good, and trying, but not grasping knowledge or performing exceptionally well on tests and get to you. We try to do really well, but sometimes just don’t quite make it. It’s important to realize that despite all that happens, our Heavenly Father has a plan for us that, as we continue to strive to follow Christ, will gradually be revealed to us. Today in church, our Sunday school lesson was on recognizing the Spirit. It was such a powerful lesson! Our teacher shared one of Elder Bednar’s videos on revelation. It came to me that a lot of times we really expect ourselves to be able to receive answers and know exactly what we’re supposed to do. But, even for a member of the Quorum of Twelve apostles, it’s more like moving through fog or a sunrise, so for us, surely we shouldn’t expect too much!
In my Physics class, our professor opened up class with a scripture. D&Covenants 109:7 “And as all have not faith, seek ye diligently and teach one another words of wisdom”. She said, someone of you are doing great in the class, and some of you aren’t. The class grades ranged from 20%-100% with the majority in the %70s. She said some of us may not have faith, or a knowledge of physics, but those who do can help! She spent the first part of class giving a motivational speech and having those who felt like they understood move and sit by those who didn’t. I thought it was way cool that the professor would care that much about the students and the motivation they gave was much needed. Also, pigs do fly!
This past week or so, I’ve put off applying for a teaching position at the MTC for a long time, but I finally did it! I don’t think I’ve been so nervous for a teaching appointment before. A tip for those wanting to apply: the people there are all so incredibly friendly and welcoming, don’t be nervous! The ten minutes of teaching goes by incredibly fast. Plan to just share a little and a commitment to give and let them do the talking/learning. We’ll find out the results of my interview in around two weeks.
Institute this week was on repentance and teachings of modern day prophets. It was a really great lesson and discussion, also another great opportunity to continue to build friendships and get to know people. I was able to get a ride with a few people from our ward and get to know a bit better. Repentance is actually a theme that I’ve noticed throughout this past week. My Saturday was a day we didn’t have classes, but it was probably the busiest day of the week!
I went out with RDH again and made some new friends! I ended up carpooling with some other people who were also freshman and pretty cool. We all worked together to help build these houses. We had to unbury a lot of large tarp-blankets that had been laid down for pouring concrete for drive ways. These tarps were buried under snow and we had to do a lot of work to get them unburied. We realized that if all of us pulled on the tarps at the same time, even though there may have been some snow left that we didn’t clear off, we were able to pull and slide the tarps away where we could dump the snow. Teamwork really makes things easier!
After that, we went to a session in the temple. We went for endowments, but ended up doing sealings. It’s always such an AMAZING experience to get to do temple work. You can really feel the Spirit and everything things to be put into perspective in the temple. Having been switching from sealings to endowments week to week, I’ve really noticed even more how important the family is and how greatly we’re blessed to have such ordinances such as sealings. Not must marriages, no. But eternal family Sealings.
Afterwards, we went shopping, did homework, and went to my first BYU Men’s Volleyball game. I ate my first cougar tail which was a two-foot long maple donut! So good, and so much sugar! Usually you just get them to share, but because it was my first, I was told I had to try to eat it myself, which I did and am mildly proud of. BYU won and it was actually a really great time! We said next time we’d just need to try and invite other people to go, too.
This is already so long, but one last thing I learned about repentance. We can change. On the nice peaceful walk back home from RHD, I re-listened to the song Second Hand Heart by Ben Haenow. I realized it was such a great song about change. I’ve been thinking about much I’d like to change, and we really can if we just try everyday. We can repent and be better. I thought so much about how badly I wanted, needed, to be different. Grow, become, develop, improve, progress, mature, learn – that’s why we’re here in this life and we can do it. On the way back from the temple, I thought about this again, but about missions. Guess what? The Lord didn’t send me, doesn’t send us, all over the world for 18 months to 2 years to just teach the Gospel. He most definitely sends them to change. To learn to grow, to repent. To finish serving a two-year mission and say you’ve been successful, you really can’t ever stop serving. That’s our purpose here and the conclusion I came to in the temple, that we need to serve. As much as we can gain from a career, expertise in a field, a family, we do so in order to serve and contribute back. I have to write a scholarship essay and that’s what I wrote it on. What motivates us to serve. It’s something I’m relearning time and time again. We went to a tennis match a few days ago, and on the way back, I talked to a stranger I bet along the way. I got to know him and talk to him. It was really easy and felt genuine to just talk to someone. Service and meeting new people are actually really easy and I’m going to make it a goal to do it more! I hope you had a great week!